I got a war in my mind.
My feelings confuse me.
My head says, "who cares" but my heart whispers "you do."
I know exactly what not to do BUT that's what I feel like doing.
My life is very simple yet I insist on making it complicated.
The problem is, I think too much!
I want 'now now' answers to my prayers.
Just when I think I am there, the Lord shows me yet another weakness.
He magnifies my imperfections to get me out of my comfort zone.
The next step always feels like starting from zero.
It always appears as though no progress is being made.
Sometimes I think being Christian is the hardest thing.
It's a constant battle in the mind.
A battle against self.
Whatever it will take, I am going to fight the good fight.
I will endure until the end.
I know it will not be easy but definitely worth it.
I have heaven in my heart and can't miss it for anything.
I can't wait for that glorious day of reunion.
When Jesus will pronounce the words "Well done thou good and faithful servant...enter now into the joy of the Lord."
"Prone to wander Lord I feel it, prone to leave the God I love.
Here is my heart!
Take and seal it, seal it for the courts above!"